Start, stop, forget what you started. ⠀⠀
Start over, stop, forget what you started over. ⠀⠀
Don’t start, stop, forget what you didn’t start.⠀⠀
And just like that, everything in her world changed.⠀
She was overwhelmed with emotion as she tried to figure it all out in the few seconds after they met.
Getting out of the house with a toddler...
Puts alarm on the night before.
Wakes earlier to another alarm (not the electronic version).
Gets up.
Puts dressing gown on.
Read MoreI could walk for hours in the most scenic of settings but your smile will always be the best view.⠀
Even though it may be short lived,⠀
Even though I hardly see it some days,⠀
It is a beauty like no other.⠀
Dear mumma,⠀⠀⠀
I know you didn’t think it would still be going on now, but it is.⠀⠀⠀
They say it’s a newborn thing.⠀⠀⠀
They will start sleeping through,⠀⠀⠀
You will sleep again soon.
When you become pregnant for the first time, you have big visions for your life as a mother – You will watch all of the Netflix series’ that you didn’t get to watch while employed. You will have daily coffee dates with your mum group for hours on end all the time. After long walks with other mum and bub duos, you will re-hydrate at wineries and have more than 3 hours of unbroken sleep for more than one night in a row.
Read MoreWorry,⠀
Before any test;⠀
Before any scan;⠀
Before you hear a heartbeat;⠀
Before you sense any movement;⠀
Before you feel any growth from within.
Read MoreShe thought she would sit in a cafe for hours while her baby napped, she drank coffee and chatted with her friends.⠀
Read MoreAs I looked in the review mirror, there was an empty seat behind me. It was covered in crumbs. The window was marked with finger smudges and the back of the front passenger chair covered in muddy footprints.⠀
Read MoreIt’s midnight and I’m exhausted.⠀⠀
I have finally ticked off what I aimed to do within the few hours I had to focus my attention on tasks that were not manageable during the day.
I used to think you could figure it all out eventually. After all, isn’t that the goal? The expectation? The pressure?⠀
I thought it was going to be like following a manual of sorts, and that through trial and error you get there in the end. ⠀
What’s the best way to do that? What should I not to do next time? How could I be more efficient with that?
Those first few months,⠀
Triggered. ⠀
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The difficulty we had deciding who was holding her triggers memories of trying to find our groove as a team when we had no idea what positions we were playing in.⠀
You give them what you can, always. ⠀
Sometimes it doesn’t feel like it’s enough.⠀
Sometimes it doesn’t feel beautiful.⠀
Sometimes it doesn’t feel easy.
There is no “alone” in “motherhood”. ⠀
Sometimes you cannot relate to another mother’s experience and in that moment you can sometimes feel alone. ⠀
Read MoreTo the mums out there who have gone through yet another day of no proper “self-care”, I know what it’s like.⠀
I know you are trying.
Read MoreWhat is honest motherhood? ⠀⠀
By formal definition it’s the act of being truthful and sincere in one’s motherhood journey. ⠀⠀
By my definition it’s sharing the highs and lows, the embarrassing and the unfiltered, the real and the raw in its entirety for better and for worse when it comes to raising little humans.⠀⠀
Read MoreIt still hasn’t ended so it starts with us.⠀
As a mother, teacher and role model to my children now and in the future here is my pledge.
She was wearing a spotless blazer and an uncreased white silk blouse.⠀⠀
Her straightened hair blew in the wind almost in sync with the split at the back of her pencil shirt.⠀⠀
She held with her left hand to her chest her laptop bag and on her right arm her discreet leather handbag.
Her heels were high but that didn’t stop her.
To all the pregnant women right now, I get it. ⠀⠀
I get how you can be absolutely exhausted during the day but restless at night.⠀⠀
I get how you can suddenly want to eat everything all at once but then touch nothing for hours.⠀⠀
I get how you can worry about everything one moment and then forget what you were worrying about the next.⠀⠀
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