I never thought I would be the type of mum that I am. I worried that I wouldn’t give my child enough, that I was ill-equipped and that my career would remain the biggest threat to my overall life balance.
Read MoreWhen we are young and vulnerable we are looked after without question.
People go out of their way to make sure we feel safe, love and protected. We are the future. We don’t know it yet, but everyone else does.
Read MoreChildren want to feel safe
They want you to smile at them
They want you to hold them
They want you to be there
That costs nothing.
Read MoreIt all starts with excitement
We can’t wait to get in touch
So we can start this journey together
A chapter that means so much.
We have done the at home test
We know it’s a positive result
The next step is to see you
It’s you we trust to consult.
Read MoreToday you stood on a thistle. You yelped, crawled over to me and clung on to me for dare life. Your little hands grasped onto my cheeks trying to get closer and closer to me. It wasn’t possible but you continued to try. Your face touched mine and I could feel the tears running down between our cheeks. They fell from your long wet lashes which were kissing my nose. I told you it was ok and there we sat for a long while, waiting for the stress to leave your little body.
Read MoreIt’s amazing to think back
To a time when I had space
It’s a distance memory now, it’s true
A chapter now replaced.
Women who talk about negatively about other women are often jealous.
Women who don’t support the success of other women feel threatened.
Women who go out of their way to make other women feel excluded are insecure.
Read MoreThis is how I want you to grow up.
In a happy home, a loving home, a safe home.
Smiling when you’re happy, crying when you’re sad and yelling when you’re mad.
I want you to be able to feel emotion, understand emotion and express emotion.
Read MoreIt doesn’t matter if you work full time or are a stay at home mum.
It doesn’t matter if your child is in day care or at home with you.
It doesn’t matter if your child goes to swimming lessons or learns in a paddling pool at home.
Read MoreIt happens each time that we are due to go out. Mark’s shirts are ironed, Lottie’s dressed and fed, the car is packed. I am excited to be going out as a family for the first time in a long time. I ask Mark to look after Lottie while I get myself ready in the last 5 minutes spare. It’s amazing how efficient you become.
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As you sit in a messy room late at night You are tired and can’t be bothered
You think about all you’ve done that day There is still a lot to be conquered.
You have played with play dough
You have taught your child how to bake You have done some cleaning
But there is still much to do and it’s late.
Read MoreIt was not a phrase I had heard before until I stumbled across Sophie Young’s Instagram bio. It is an affirmation of what I strongly believe in, namely, to work hard to reach my goals and be in control of my destination.
Read MoreI never use the word hate but for you I make an exception.
We get to cross paths once every month on average. It’s nice when we don’t but most of the time
that doesn’t happen. You show up, ready to torment and send me into a craze.
Dad was at work. It was just me and you.
Things were going well initially. You watched and played as I exercised, we filled up the pool and you ate snacks, lot of snacks. I cleaned a bit but I couldn’t really be bothered. You played outside again for a while as I hung out some washing. The sun was out and the birds were chirping. You were smiling from ear to ear as you picked blades of grass and watched them blow away in the wind.
Read MoreSunsets used to be shared by just the two of us. We could sit in silence and bask in the beauty of the purple, orange and yellow pallet smeared above the horizon. We didn’t do it often but when we did we never complained. It is a beautiful time of the evening in every possible way.
Read MoreI am about to tell you something
It’s in the pipeline
It’s important
You need to know the background
Bear with me
But relax, it’s not some sort of endorsement.
Read MoreWhen I look at these sticks underneath me , I am reminded of my varicose veins. I have a number of them. Like purple spider webs they continue to grow on the part of my body I like most, my legs.
Read MorePhotos are amazing things.
They capture a moment in time, an expression, or a mood. They can help diarise important moments, be the trigger you need to take you back to an earlier time and a discussion point from generation to generation.
Read MoreIt’s a messy house we now live in
I can hardly see the floor
Between the unfolded clothes and layers of toys
She’s a clean freak’s nightmare, that’s for sure.
It’s not always like this
There are times when I clean
When my child is sleeping
And I’m overly keen.
Read MoreI realise it is no longer Christmas but hear me out, I make a point.
I never really know what day it is anymore. The days merge into each other, there is no real structure and certainly no shortage of laundry.
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