Possible

Sometimes I just want to go to the toilet in peace,

I just want to hear anything but crying,

I just want to finish a page of my book or three of theirs without a tantrum,

But sometimes it’s just not possible.

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Sometimes I just want to meet up with friends,

I just want to stay that extra night,

I just want to have one more drink,

But sometimes it’s just not possible.

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Sometimes just I want to have a hot meal,

I just want nap time to run smoothly,

I just want to get a night of unbroken sleep,

But sometimes it’s just not possible.

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Sometimes I just want to send an email,

I just want to cook a nutritious meal,

I just want to make the play date,

But sometimes it’s just not possible.

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Sometimes I just want to spend time with my husband,

I just want to cuddle our newborn,

I just want to play with our toddler,

But sometimes it’s just not possible.

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And here’s the thing.

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I always try to enjoy every moment.

To be grateful for every moment.

To cherish every moment.

But sometimes it’s just not possible.

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And I always try to be present in every moment.

To remember every good moment and forget every bad.

To make every moment memorable for them every day.

But sometimes it’s just not possible.

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And I repeat.

Sometimes it’s just not possible to do anything or everything every moment.

Sometimes it’s just not possible to enjoy or cherish every moment.

It really isn’t.

But the point is, it has to be, that I’m trying to make every moment a possible, in face of the impossible.

And possibly I should give that alone a lot more credit than I do.

Because without trying there would be no possible at all.

And I do make it possible a lot of the time.