They were right

I know it’s cliche but where does the time go? ⠀

I used to roll my eyes when people asked it but as I sit here with a toddler who will be two in only a few months and an ever growing belly reaching for an end date, there is no more rolling to be had. They were right.⠀⠀

I still remember the newborn days like they were yesterday, the miscarriage I had before my current pregnancy like it was only moments ago, and the first trimester of this pregnancy like it has only just passed.⠀

During these moments I felt like I had all the time in the world, sometimes wishing that time would move more quickly. And this wasn’t just during the hard moments either. ⠀

As I first time mum I so often wanted her to get to the next stage, even though the current stage had so much to give. ⠀

“Enjoy her while she’s not moving. You won’t have much time when she is”. I did, but I still wanted to see her crawl. ⠀

“The solids can be a hassle. Enjoy the convenience of her reliance only on milk”. I did, but I still wanted to see her experience food for the first time. ⠀

This wasn’t about not enjoying her in the stage she was at, but it was all new to me too. I wanted to experience everything NOW. ⠀

However, when the now struck, I often wished for that time back because they were right. Time really does move quickly.⠀

The moments I didn’t want to relive were not lost on me, although I now realise they all served a purpose. ⠀

I was impatient around the process of my miscarriage. Back then it felt like time stood still. It was cruel. ⠀

I was wishing away the time during my first trimester. Back then it felt like a marathon with no end in sight. It was testing.⠀

However the purpose was the realisation that even though moments can be hard, and it can feel like time has been stopped in its tracks, it in fact moves so quickly that you later wonder how did that happen only years, months and weeks ago? It was the realisation that time waits for nothing, and no one. ⠀

“Walk... mum...alk”.⠀

Ironically my thought process is interrupted by the very cliche I’m writing about.⠀

When did she learn to say walk? She hasn’t been walking for that long.⠀

They were right.⠀

It’s a cliche for a reason.