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Some of the things I plan to do today:

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I’m going to try and have a coffee while it’s hot. It seems simple, but it’s a big deal.

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I’m going to try and read them books and play with them. I’m not sure when this will happen, or whether they will sit still long enough, bull I’ll try.

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I’m going to try and get them out for a walk but the weather looks terrible so we’ll probably just stay inside. I’ll try not to go stir crazy.

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I’m going to try and get them down for a nap at some point. I need this as I have work to do but it probably won’t happen so I’ll be up late tonight doing it. I’ll be tired and grumpy with my husband.

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I’m going to get frustrated as I walk past the huge washing pile on our bed over and over again because I probably won’t have time to deal with it. It’s too overwhelming to start anyway.

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I’m going to say “no” a lot, and “yes” to things I don’t plan to right now because it’s easier.

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I’m going to try really hard to be as calm

as possible and hope not to lose it at some point. All I can do is hope sometimes.

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I’m going to think about what we’re for dinner at the last minute, and I’ll most definitely overcook or burn something.

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I’m going to try and get them to bed on time because I need some time for myself, for my husband, for all of the things that I didn’t get done today because of the more important thing that I did get done instead (mothering them).

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And then I’m probably going scroll on my phone to see what everyone else got up to with their children.

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Then I may fall into the trap of telling myself that they did so much more than me, that I should’ve had bigger plans for my children, that tomorrow I need to do better.

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And I’ll definitely forget that I only saw a few minutes of the 24 hours that made up their day. That they have a completely different family with different circumstances. That there is always more (or less) than what we see online.

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So if you do none of what I do during your day, perfect.

If you do some of it, also perfect.

If you do most of it, also perfect.

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But please, just don’t do the one thing I do too much.

That last thing.

It shouldn’t be on my plan at all.