Now

What will I do?

I have no clue

I’m wrapped in you tightly

You are my glue

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One day you’ll leave

The path we’ve paved

The house will be quiet

The beds will stay made

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I’ll stand in your rooms

Reliving our years

I’ll hold your teddies

And swallow my tears

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I know I’ll be lost

More so than now

My heart needing more

Than time did allow

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You are part of me

The extension I know

So when you’re missing

I’ll need to regrow

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It will take time

To sew those seeds

And get used to me

Meeting my needs

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I will feel limbless

As I carry on

My load much lighter

But my emptiness strong

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It won’t be easy

To let you go

But it’s what you need

That much I know

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That time will come

I’ll approach it then

Until then, I’ll live “now”

Not in “but when”.