My forever

Darling child,

I may not always be right here,

In the way I am now.

Skin to skin, breath to breath, heart to heart.

In the days, nights and everything in between.

But I’ll always be here.

Just a phone call away.

Never too far away.

My heart will always be yours.

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And I may not always look like this,

The way I do now.

My eyes so tired and my hair such a mess, my polish so little and my bags so large, my body so new and my wardrobe so old.

But I will always look back at this time with such pride.

For all I did.

For all I became.

All of it was worth it for you.

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And I may not always see your firsts,

In the way I can now.

First smiles and tastes, first words and steps, first firsts and lasts.

But you’ll always come first.

A love that never loses.

A memory that never fades.

You are a winner in every sense.

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And I may not always be the one you come to,

In the way you do now.

With your tears and laughter, your pride and confusion, your happiness and worry.

But I’ll be where you need me to be.

Second, or last.

Tomorrow or one day.

I’ll always wait for you to need me again.

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And I may not always be the last one you see at night,

In the way I am now.

Pages skipped and lines misread, stories exchanged and lullabies whispered, stopping and starting every chapter.

But you will always be my favourite story.

Sentences printed on my heart.

Chapters repeated with your own.

The entire plot on the bookcase of my soul.

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And I may not always carry you in my arms,

In the way I do now.

From side to side, from place to place, from day til night.

But I will always carry you.

In my heart which calls for you.

In my mind which thinks of you.

In my memories filled with every part of you.

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And I may not have the privilege of being your everything,

In the way I am now.

Your comfort and dreams, your earth and sun, your moon and stars.

But I’ll always have the privilege of being your mum.

The name I prefer than my own.

The role I’ll always be most proud of.

A title I’ll honour forever.

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My darling,

We may not always have the way we are now.

But that’s ok,

Because you will always be my forever.