Dear Mum

Dear Mum,

If I could tell you what I am thinking this is what I would say.

You don’t like your teeth so you hide them when you smile to people we don’t know. When you smile properly that makes me feel happy because I know that everything is ok. I love your teeth just the way they are.

You don’t like that your arms are bigger than they used to be. Your arms are nice and strong so you can carry me each day. I can’t walk and rely on you to help me get to where I need to go. I love your arms just the way they are.

You think your boobs are less perky and saggier than they used to be. Your boobs have fed me for the last 7 months and have been my comfort when I have felt worried or scared. I love your boobs just the way they are.

You think your tummy is squishy and not firm like it used to be. Your tummy grew me for 9 months just so I can be here today. It’s soft like a cushion and makes me feel comfortable when I am cuddling into you. I love your tummy just the way it is.

You don’t like that you can’t fit in to some of your old jeans. I don’t know what size you used to be and that doesn’t matter to me anyway. I love you just the way you are now.

Mum, you get grumpy with yourself if you don’t take me for a walk some days. Don’t feel bad. I don’t mind because it means we can play with my toys for longer.

You are hard on yourself when we can’t make it to playgroup sometimes. Don’t be hard on yourself. I love spending time with you the most anyway.

You feel guilty when you are having an off day. Don’t feel guilty. As long as your with me, keep me warm, fed and safe, I’m content.

You feel worried when you leave me with other people. Don’t feel worried. I will be ok as long as you always promise to come back.

Mum, you always tell dad that you are tired. That’s my fault and I am sorry. I just like cuddling you in the middle of the night if my teeth are sore, I am hungry or I want to be close to you. I will grow out of it, I promise.

I know you don’t always feel like you have time for yourself anymore. That’s mostly my fault too and I’m sorry. You are my lifeline and I like being with you all the time. This won’t last forever so let’s just enjoy it while it lasts.

I love you mum.

Lottie Xxx

P.s. Can I have a brother or sister soon?